I felt very envious. #MeToo. If only I had known that a few years after taking out a housing loan, I would end up here, very unhappy. No matter how good my days are or how much I smile and laugh, I still feel the pain; like now. Work is fairly easy, but the feeling of demotivated and demoralised, lingers. I’m not perfect or fabulous, but I was once passionate, honest and excited. I lost my compass because I needed to be credible to do my work. I sincerly wanted to become an instructional technologist.

I don’t need your prayers. I’ve asked for them many times, in holy and unholy places, but I still did not get an in-service scholarship. Prayers does not work. Human’s decision are more fatal. I’m asking for something different: if there is an opening (job) that provides enough to sustain my living, kindly give me a heads-up.

Thank you, help me find and be happy again.